The energy taken up by bingeing and by trying to stop …
… trying desperately not to binge, just for the next few minutes, just for today …
… day dreaming about the food you’ll eat …
… rushing to buy the food and binge eating it all until you can’t eat another bite …
… laid out in a post-binge coma …
… overcome by an exhausted body-and-brain-fog for the next few days …
… researching and committing to the next sure-fire solution …
… doing it all again … and again … and again …
There was a mini-infestation of wasps in my house this week. Well, 5 wasps.
Each pesky critter was caught in a glass, a leaflet slid underneath and then taken outside.
The energy of the trapped wasp buzzing around the glass was phenomenal, vibrating in my hands.
It reminded me of all the energy it took trying to stop binge eating over the 29 years I felt utterly trapped by it.
So much time and energy yet I remained stuck inside the glass, trapped in the exhausting cycle of hope and despair.
It turned out there was a way out.
A way that looked a little different and took a leap of faith. And it worked.